Magic

Yesterday Ajax and I did a little spell for success - it was a simple spell, involving lavender oil, and chanting over a yellow candle. Before chanting, we had to hold our candles and visualize our desires, see ourselves receiving whatever it is we wanted to receive, opening a letter or acceptance, or seeing a bigger paycheck, etc etc.

As I held my candle, I realized with some dismay, that I had no definite goal. No concrete thing that had to do with work or career that I could visualize for myself. At first, I was upset by that realization, then looked a little deeper into the feeling of being upset. Moved through it to a place of surrender and asked myself how I do visualize MY LIFE in the next few years.

And what I saw was a happy house, a little chaotic, with toddlers running amok and Ajax and I both juggling home-based jobs and kids. Juggling in a good way - both of us able to be home with our kids whenever possible.

So that's what I wished for - that's what I visualized.

Will you visualize it with me?