And another one...

Yep, here I am at 4 am again. This time trying to suss out some sense of this dream... first I'm in the yoga center and I realize that I really can't teach the Mommy & Me class. I'm not sure why, but I can't. So I get Sada Simran to do it. Then I go to work behind the front counter and take some iced tea with me. Kali's there and tells me I can't have beverages behind the counter, which pisses me off, but I figure she must know because I haven't been behind the front counter in a while. Marlene starts to tell me that I should really think twice about Sada Simran as a doula and I freak out and tell her it's too late for that and she needs to be more supportive and not tell me negative things.
Then it all switches and I'm watching some bizarre scene from Beauty & the Beast, where some thugs try to steal Belle from the Beast, he saves her, and she immediately swoons and starts talking marriage and kids and the Beast freaks out like "whoa whoa - let's go one step at a time here!"
Then suddenly the Beatles are all alive and back together and are playing a private gig from some insanely rich Middle Eastern/Arabic guy who has a private train that drives right into their hotel come pick them up. They get stinking drunk and almost eat the semi-raw chicken he serves them and are laughing and reminiscing.

And scene.

WTF?

And now I'm wide awake, but totally groggy, eating Honey Nut Cheerios (it's the last box, I swear!) at 4:21 am. And no one has posted anything the least bit interesting on Facebook.

bah.

Mostly in between the bizarro dream sequences (or layered beneath them?) I thought about labor and having this baby girl. How weird it will be. Scary? Maybe. But I think whatever fear that comes up now is mostly fear of the unknown... like going to a new school or starting a new job. I know it will be fine, good, wonderful, etc but I have no concept of what to expect really. No book or labor prep class can ever really give you an accurate depiction of what it's like to have a human being come out from inside you. It's just.... weird. Really - when you think about it, it is. Mammals are very strange.