First the raise... then the promotion

So without going too into detail, I recently turned down a job at another yoga studio (well, potential yoga studio - it's not open yet...). My loyalty and my hard work earned me a much needed and much deserved raise - yay!! It's a good raise. It will definitely cover the increase in rent we just took on with our new house.

But there's always the catch...

Last week I got a promotion! I am both thrilled and nervous about this - I haven't really dumped any major responsibilities off my plate, though I will soon get rid of the last albatross around my neck known as "accounting." So I am taking on a bit more responsibility and am now the "Program Director" for Golden Bridge. (My last title was a bit wordy - Creative Director/Teacher Training Director/Accounts Payable... it's nice to bring it down a notch.) My new position means that I am now overseeing all aspects of all events at Golden Bridge and Sada Simran and Sarab will work under me. (Zoinks!) It makes sense in a lot of ways... Gurmukh's travelling a lot, and Marlene's too busy to oversee the entire thing... And I've been frustrated lately that I, as the Creative Director, was not getting information for events until really late, was having to chase people around for the write-ups, etc. Now I get to set the standards and say when copy is due, etc etc. And also look at the overall picture to see if there are somethings that just don't make sense.

That part is exciting to me. And as I've started already on the path, I'm getting more excited. I realized yesterday we need a complete re-design on our Teacher Training page because we've added so many trainings (Boulder, India!) and I get to be the one who designs it! So cool!!!

But I'm also nervous because it's a lot more work. To be honest, I've kind of been coasting the past few months at work. With Teacher Training now almost done, I've been able to chill out a little... now things will ramp back up. But I realized yesterday that I'm excited about this promtion because it's a chance to prove to MYSELF what I can do. I'm (working on) letting go of worrying about if I'll be good enough or pleasing my bosses... (though obviously that's important).

Gurmukh said to me yesterday when we were talking about this, that I have to be much more pro-active, much stronger and more navel (more navel = more to the point, not taking no for an answer, etc) and that she thinks my work outs will help with that. I have to say I agree with that - working out has made me stronger - but I also know that I'm able to be stronger and to say what I think/need/feel because I am married to a man who not only loves that side of me, but encourages it in me. So I have learned to trust myself and my voice much more.