Conversations with Ruby

Yesterday we went for a little walk around the lake, me and my hopefully soon-to-be born daughter. (ooooh, that's so cool to say/write that!)

It's usually a meditative time for me to go walking and this time was no different... the air was cool, a little humid and the sun was just starting to peek out from behind the fog. I was enjoying the wood ducks swimming on the reservoir, grinned like a maniac at a guy I went to college with who I'm sure doesn't remember me and was thinking "wow that really pregnant lady was sure happy to see me!" Just all around a lovely stroll. (I don't go much faster than "stroll" now. In fact, stroll is to spring what waddle is to walk these days).

And then I heard a little voice in my head say "I'm ready Mama."

Ah - my little miss.

"Good," said I, "we're so ready to see you. When are you planning to arrive?"

"It's a surprise," she giggled.

I had to laugh - this one is an imp already.

"Okay, we're ready when you are sweetie."

Pause.

"Mama? How will I know when it's time?"

"Well, I think you'll just know - it's your divine timing. We're here for you, so you need to talk to your spirit guides and see what's the best for you, for your life's journey."

"Okay... when can my sister come? Because she's my best friend and I'm really going to miss her. But she might come as a boy, is that okay?"

"Of course it's okay - we'll love her as a boy or a girl. But let's wait a couple years. But she's always welcome to come and visit us like you have. We love her already and are so excited to have her in our family too. I'll make sure you stay connected to her - don't worry!"

"Okay. Because she's my best friend."

Got it. Excellent... no sibling rivalry in the Valentine house. Nice.

"Mama?"

"Ruby?"

"Can we go to Burning Man? Because it's really fun there."

Now I'm laughing...

"How do you know it's fun there? And yes of course we'll go!"

"I went when I was helping you and Daddy fall in love remember?"

Duh. Silly mommy.

"I miss Daddy. I can't wait to see him."

"Then come on out - he's going to be the first one to hold you and kiss you when you get here!"

"Okay. I'm going to visit Eaglewoman. I'm going to tell her when I'm coming."

"Have fun!"


This morning as I was relaying all of this to Ajax, he started to get a little weepy. I thanked him for not thinking he had a crazy wife and he said "I know it's real because you have faith and that faith is the foundation of our family."

I'm so so blessed.