A new role

Today is my first "real" day of having my morning off... Monday was a holiday, Tuesday morning was filled with doctor's appointments (we found a pediatrician - yay!) and yesterday I worked in the morning because I had an afternoon midwife appointment. So today I'm blissfully washing dishes, doing laundry, cleaning the bathroom... Honestly blissfully! I like being home. I'm also somewhat trapped here waiting for the AT&T rep to come install our landline, but at least I've been productive so far. Considering it's only 9:15!

I'm definitely in some sort of "me" zone. Yesterday I put the car in reverse instead of drive and promptly backed into the neighbor's car. Car's fine (mine and theirs), baby is fine... I'm a little sore, but I was a little sore before, so that's nothing new. Just a reminder to slow down even more and pay attention to what I'm doing! Yesterday afternoon I was in Whole Foods and had that same "me" zone experience... I wandered around for 15 minutes before I remembered I was there for two things: ghee and tea tree oil.

What's new and different is that I like being in this zone. It's really "me and baby" zone. I feel connected to her and all I really want to do is rub my tummy and talk to her all day.

Yesterday (that's now the third sentence I've started with that word), I ran into Eaglewoman. Eaglewoman and Ruby have a very sweet friendship - Ruby has been visiting with her for a few years now (YEARS!). When she first showed up she told Eaglewoman she was waiting for her mommy. She's a patient girl. At our 120th Day ceremony an angel brought Ruby's soul down to me while I was in Eaglewoman's healing hands. And yesterday Eaglewoman told me that Ruby was visiting with her and showing her a spider-web type grid - her life grid. I don't know much about grids, except that apparently we all have one... like a life-path. Anyway, she was showing Eaglewoman different colored ribbons and yarns, saying "this one goes here, this one goes here."

What's remarkable about this (you know, aside from my astral-projecting daughter visiting a shaman descended from Geronimo on a regular basis... cause that's just normal, right?) is that I have a little project for Ruby's room that could indeed look a little like a spider-web and uses different colored ribbons and yarns. Cool huh? :) Not even born yet and already making with the symbolism.

Oh and Ruby digs the Clash.

She's one rad kid.