Ahhhh - it's 3:15 am. And I'm wide awake. (After a "How I Met Your Mother" themed dream that was nice, but weird... We watch too many re-runs of that show, methinks...)
I knew yesterday wasn't the day - I knew it after I posted at 3 am and then went to sit and meditate in our (superclean!) living room. I just heard Wednesday Wednesday Wednesday. I think Ruby didn't want to be saddled with "Ruby Tuesday" for the rest of her life and that's fine by me! I am all for avoiding annoying nicknames. I took it very very easy in the morning and was really looking forward to our midwife appointment in the afternoon. I slept in, I took a nap on the couch, did some laundry. Have I mentioned I'm obsessed with laundry lately? For a while I was obsessed with having enough toilet paper in the house... now that we do, I'm convinced that all the clothes have to be clean before she comes or we'll be surrounded by piles of dirty clothes for the next three months. Irrational? Yes. But hey - I heard about a guy yesterday who is completely and utterly terrified of cucumbers (and by extenstion, pickles). Makes my laundry thing a little less irrational yes?
Speaking of irrational, around the time I decided a shower was in order, I got a call that Davi (our midwife) had to cancel our appointment as she was at another birth.
Complete and total meltdown.
Seriously - I called Ajax in tears, so upset, so disapointed. And later I realized, so envious of THAT mom who got her baby yesterday.
A long hot shower helped. Doing 3 minutes of cat-cow exercises with the hot water beating down on my sore lower back helped a LOT more. Realizing (hoping) that Tuesday wasn't our day because Ruby wants to make sure Davi is actually AT her birth helped a lot more. Smart little girl - in touch with the cosmos.
After the shower, I felt so much better. More open. Brian had offered to come over and bring lunch and at first, I was thinking "No I want to be myself" until I realized that was utter bullshit. So I called him and bless his heart, he came over with Zankou chicken & hummus and we had an awesome afternoon in the garden, eating and catching up. It was so incredibly lovely and calming I can't even describe it. We've been a little disconnected lately, so it was just fantastic to be able to catch up on everything and talk like we used/usually do.
Oh! And the baby's room - so beautiful! Gotta take pictures tomorrow. The mural is done! Sarah's going to swing by today to do the other two walls in yellow - shouldn't take more than an hour, I'd think! Then the plastic can come up and the furniture can get moved out of the center of the room! Hurraaay!!! So maybe Ruby is waiting for that. Who knows.
The highlight of yesterday was two-fold. Ajax came home early and I went to acupuncture. Sort of serendipitous - the midwife appointment got cancelled and Jeremiah had an opening at the exact same time. So off we went... And I definitely felt it working. So let's hope the energy keeps moving and things start contracting today!
We're going to see Michelle (the other midwife) today as well - hoping she'll be able to strip the membranes, so it's easier for my water to break. REALLY hoping she'll tell me we're fully effaced and even a little dilated. After that I'm thinking I'll head up to the Valley for this salad at this cafe that's supposed to induce labor... (Read about it here) I'll probably get it to go and go spend some time with my friend Jennifer and her wonderful daughter Leela, who I've know since she was 6 weeks old. Now she's almost 3!! Maybe she can have a chat with Ruby about how fun it is in the world!
One day at a time up here at Mt. Valentine. The hardest part is that Ajax has to go back to work, but really there's nothing for him to do there. He was so bored yesterday. His temp replacment is already doing everything... but something about the way his leave works, he has to be there until the baby actually is born. It's driving him crazy to be so far away. I keep hoping I'll start having contractions NOW so he can stay home today. And you know, so we can HAVE THIS BABY!!!
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